I found myself in a vat of self-convincing soup.
Convincing myself the quarantine was temporary, to just breathe, appreciate the quiet pace and take this pandemic moment by moment.
Convincing myself to not listen to the news around the world.
Convincing myself I didn’t have the knowledge or full understanding to speak up about the disheartening treatment of minorities and workers during COVID-19 and the rise in domestic and child abuse.
A few weeks into the tumultuous changes in my own household-reshifting work schedules, the death of my beloved grandmother and the mourning of loss of structure for my school age, diverse ability son and young 2 year old- the pot boiled over and I couldn’t remain rigid any longer.
I hovered in a small corner of my bedroom and looked for answers in “Christ the Eternal Tao” and this sentence called to me.
“The softest thing in the universe,” said the Ancient Sage,
“Overcomes the hardest thing in the universe.”
-The Gospel According to Lao Tzu
I felt I was being asked to shift from the rigid, convincing self to someone who could sit with all. I felt called to invite love and light into my deepest questions, anger and fears. It meant being willing to sit with the hard parts that I was feeling and that others may be too- painful emotions, painful questions, the great Unknown.
I decided to open a new community for others to have a safe sanctuary to share- the Wild & Bright Sanctuary.
I also led a group of female professionals where we could talk about grief. I believe from the process of feeling and acknowledging grief true strength and resilience arises from within.
I found a softness for the hard things by being loving to my own pain and questions.
Through softness and perseverance of that softness, I now know all of us are valuable contributors to our fellow humans and environment that are experiencing hard things right now.
Softness is allowed and immensely necessary for healing of the hardest things in our world.
If you are needing support, reach out and set up an appointment to create a personalized plan. As a dear friend shared with me “it is important to feel strong in times like this.” You deserve to and can feel strong in all areas of your life.